Published November 14, 2025 | By Alyx E, Founder of Collectors MD

There’s a moment in every collector’s journey when the hobby stops feeling like a choice and starts feeling like a pull—an invisible force dragging you toward the next rip, the next bid, the next hit. At first it looks like excitement. Then one day you see it for what it actually is: two versions of you digging their heels into the same rope. One chasing relief, escape, and adrenaline. The other trying to hold on to meaning, memory, and the joy that originally brought you into the hobby. And in that tight, breath-held second, you realize the real battle isn’t in the cards or the breaks—it’s in you.

The line between intention and compulsion is razor thin, and most collectors cross it long before they realize it exists. Intention feels steady. You pick something up because it matters, and afterward you feel grounded, satisfied, and connected through nostalgia and meaning. Compulsion feels urgent. You’re buying to escape something, fill a void, or soothe that mix of stress, boredom, loneliness—that familiar ache you can’t quite name—and ten minutes later you’re staring at receipts and tracking numbers, wondering how you once again ended up here.

It’s the moment you finally see the rope for what it is—a constant pull between intention and compulsion, and you in the middle trying to choose who you want to be.

The hobby doesn’t warn you when you’ve crossed that line—nor does it care. It uses the same language to describe both lanes. A thoughtful PC pickup and a midnight spiral get stamped with the same W’s or L’s in the chat. But your nervous system knows the truth. Intention feels calm. Compulsion feels like a heaviness in your body, a rush that fades fast and leaves you emptier than before.

The shift back toward intention doesn’t require a meltdown or a rock-bottom moment. Most of the time it starts with a quiet realization: “I love this hobby—just not this version of it”. That’s not weakness. It’s awareness. It’s your internal grip on the rope strengthening again.

From there, you get to choose how you show up. For some, it’s practicing abstinence—stepping away entirely to give your mind and body space to reset. For others, it’s rebuilding structure: limits, boundaries, fewer triggers, intentional decisions, honest conversations with someone who can hold you accountable. Intentional collecting isn’t about showing you can muscle through the chaos—it’s choosing to stop fighting yourself in that endless pull between passion and impulse.

The internal tug-of-war doesn’t simply end one day. It’s a lifelong pull that shows up in different forms for all of us. But you still get to choose which side receives your strength, your honesty, and the version of yourself you want to become.

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We’re re-uploading every episode of our podcasts—one per day—to make sure our new members and followers can catch up from the beginning.

If you’re new to Collectors MD, these conversations are where it all started—honest, unfiltered discussions about the realities of collecting, recovery, and rebuilding a healthier hobby.

We’ll be sharing episodes from The Collector’s Compass & Behind The Breaks covering everything from gambling parallels in collecting, to mental health, to how we find purpose beyond the chase.

Whether you’ve been here since day one or just joined the movement, this is your chance to revisit the stories that shaped our mission.

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The Collector's Compass #7: Collecting Or Compulsion? The Psychology Of The Chase

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Published November 11, 2025 | By Alyx E, Founder of Collectors MD

We underestimate how powerful we actually are. As addicts, compulsive collectors, or chronic chasers—we’ve proven that we can be relentless. We’ve found ways to stretch credit, juggle accounts, hide losses, justify purchases, and construct elaborate stories just to keep the illusion alive. That’s not stupidity—that’s resourcefulness. Misguided, yes. But it’s the same raw energy that built businesses, led movements, and fueled breakthroughs throughout history.

When I finally got honest about my own behavior, I realized something uncomfortable: I had built an entire part-time career around protecting the addiction. Every lie, every excuse, every “next time will be different” was effort—just misdirected. So what happens when you stop hiding behind that energy and start harnessing it for the greater good?

The power doesn’t disappear—it just needs direction. When we learn to harness what once fueled destruction, that same energy can build something beautiful, purposeful, and lasting.

That’s precisely what I did when I created Collectors MD. The same obsessive energy I once used to gamble, chase cards and dopamine, and protect the addiction at all costs—now drives building a movement that actually helps people heal. Every reflection, every meeting, every partnership—it all comes from that same place that once drove destruction. It’s the same wiring, just reprogrammed.

And I know I’m not alone in that transformation. Many of us have turned our chaos into creativity, our pain into purpose. The irony is, those of us who felt powerless in addiction were never weak—we were just powerful without direction. Once you find a mission that matters, the fire doesn’t burn you anymore. It lights the way forward.

We all have that switch inside us. The same drive that kept us chasing can keep us building—whether it’s recovery, community, or simply a more intentional life.

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At Collectors MD, our focus has always been clear: support, accountability, and healthier engagement. We don’t believe in force-feeding product or creating environments that prey on impulse. Instead, we highlight shops and voices that prove the hobby can thrive without predatory mechanics.

That’s why we respect what @tyler_santiago_ has built with @santiagosports. From Instagram singles nights to cultivating an in-store culture grounded in trust, they’ve shown that slower, more intentional approaches create real community. It’s still fun, still interactive—but without the casino-like mechanics that drive compulsive ripping on major platforms.

Collectors deserve spaces where they can engage, learn, and enjoy without being manipulated by algorithms or engineered FOMO. Santiago Sports is proof that prioritizing people over volume builds lasting trust.

Catch the full conversation in Episode #11 of The Collector’s Compass—now streaming on YouTube, Spotify, Apple, Amazon, and all major platforms.

Collect With Intention. Not Compulsion.

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I had the pleasure of joining The Geoff Wilson Show to share my vision for a healthier hobby. Collecting can be fun, social, and community-driven—but too often it leans on gambling-like mechanics. Imagine if odds were transparent, limits and safeguards were built in, and the focus shifted back to connection, nostalgia, and the why behind what we collect.

At its best, collecting should feel like a celebration, not a trap—it should feel like passion, not compulsion.

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